Waiting

God in my hoping

There in my dreaming

God in my watching

God in my waiting

(lyrics from Tim Hughes' Everything)

I have had a first in my life recently. I am waiting with an unsure direction or terminus. Always in life, I have waited with a specific view or goal on the other end. I waited for a school year to end for the summer, I waitied for high school to end and college to begin. I waited for college math to end so I wouldn't ever have to take math again. The list is endless.

Two weeks ago, I thought I was waiting to finish school so that I could move to Boston. Now I'm not so sure. I don't know what I am waiting on now. I only know that I am waiting. This verse above perfectly describes my location. God is there; He knows my hopes, what I'm dreaming of, he sees me watching and knows I am waiting.

Even more amazing to me, is that throught the Lord's grace, I'm not concerned that I don't know what is on the other end of this time of waiting, where I will be or what that will look like. That is so not from me. It is the exact opposite of what I do instinctively. Praising the Lord for that. I know that His plans are good, and I am enjoying this sweet time of waiting with Him.

Snow in College Station!!!

Something unbelievable and amazing happen in College Station on Wednesday. It snowed. Two beautiful inches of perfect, beautiful, fluffy, made for snowball fights snow. I was beyond deliriously happy. Below are a FEW of the many many pictures I took
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To my Becca, or to me, Becka...

Oh my Becka!!! I love you so much. We talked for 2 HOURS AND 37 MINUTES the other day!!! That for sure was the longest phone conversation we have ever had. Way to go us. I loved our "date". It was by far the best ever. (Say it: "Go Sox!!")

You are such a special person to me. I love that we have been friends so long that I can't remember us not being friends. I love that no matter what is going on in my life, no matter when the last time we talked was, I can always pick up the phone and find you. I am so thankful that I can always count on you and know that you will point me back to the Lord and the Word.

I love looking back and seeing how our friendship has grown and changed over so many years. I have so many memories - happy and not so happy - and so many things that I am thankful to have experienced with you.

I don't know why I like to misspell your name, but it just looks right to me. I don't know why you never say anything, but you don't, and I kind of love that. It is like my special name for you. Weird huh?

I am so thankful that you are the one that has walked through SO many things with me...some that I am sure you thought would never end. (I wondered the same thing too.) I am thankful that I get to watch you and Mike do married life. I love watching you (from afar) be a Mommy. You are a blessing and an encouragement to me. I want you to know that again. I love that now we get to share blogging too.

You have been such a sweet blessing to me since Saturday. I want you to know that. I love you!! Kiss your boys for me!! (Except Mike...just tell him HI when he gets back on Monday!!!)

"There's Only ONE October!!"

So I have a little secret...kind of.

Unless you really know me, or you spend A LOT of time with me, you would probably never guess that I adore baseball...Especially if the Red Sox are playing. Recently, one of my co-workers said to me, " I never would have guessed that you were interested in baseball the first time I met you." It was funny that she said that, but didn't really surprise me. Apparently, I don't have the "I love baseball" girl kind of air. Not sure exactly how I come off the first time people meet me, but apparently it doesn't scream baseball...

All of that to say, the Red Sox are rocking post-season baseball. Their last four games have been great, even the one they lost. There have been extra innings and runs made on 3-2 counts galore. It has been beautiful. I can't wait to see the American League Championship Series and then the World Series start. I can't wait to see the Red Sox running onto the field with the 2008 World Series trophy in hand. I am excited about the games ahead and the wins ahead. So fun!!

There are other things I love about October too...Like the fact that it is finally 95 degrees and not 105 degrees here in Texas. I like that I know at somepoint in the future, I will be able to wear long sleeves and dream about wearing scarves. I like that Christmas is closer. I like that soon it will be cool enought to turn off the ac...which means smaller electric bills. Which is always beautiful.

There is only one downside to this fall, and all the GREAT things in contains. I have to get a flu shot this year. I have NEVER gotten a flu shot....I have had the flu once, a million (or ten) years ago...Not in high school, not in college did I ever get the flu, but this year, I have to. I hate shots!!! So, we will see how it goes...I better not get sick after getting the shot.

Happy Fall

Grownup.

This week I started my first real, official "grown-up" job. Wow that sounds weird. Hmm. So, in the last two days being a grown up has been everything I expected and nothing like what I expected. Make sense?

I love the wonderful people I work with. They are fabulous. I enjoy working in a Doctor's office. It fits my personality I think. I love that there are things to file and paperwork. (I have an odd adoration for paperwork...) There are things I can organize. I get to use a highlighter sometimes. I answer phones. I get to multitask a lot, which is something I love to do. :) All good things. If I had picked from any job, this is the job I would pick for me. This and maybe producer (or something) for Gilmore Girls. I would rock at that too.

At the same time though, I actually miss having too much to do. Crazy huh? Don't get me wrong, I love knowing that when I leave work, I can do whatever I choose with my time and not feel guilty about putting off studying. That is wonderful. I can really enjoy how I use my time without the ever present cloud of school-guilt. So nice. Yet, at the same time, I miss having a directed purpose/goal. I have plenty to do at work, but free time is different. I thought I would have so much free time in the evenings that I would be bored. I have yet to have a free evening. Not complaining. I have LOVED every minute with the wonderful people I have spent my evenings with. It has been a blast so far. But when I do go home there isn't a mile long list of school things to accomplish with an equally long list of personal things to accomplish. I don't think I know what to do with myself. I miss being overly busy. I like having a lot to do. I don't know if that is good. Maybe it is because I want to avoid sitting and being still. I should pray about that.

So, in answer to Shannan's recent question, My goals for this time away from school are:
1. To learn to be quiet and still. Maybe I will learn to truly WAIT on the Lord.
2. To be thankful for the freedom to do things I enjoy and be a wise steward of my time and other resources.
3. I want to learn not to give into the urge to do something solely for the purpose of being busy, or having something else to put on a to-do list.
4. I especially want to use this time to build relationships. I want to be a blessing to others.

So, that it's it....my thoughts so far on growing up.