Saturday, August 09, 2008

Grownup.

This week I started my first real, official "grown-up" job. Wow that sounds weird. Hmm. So, in the last two days being a grown up has been everything I expected and nothing like what I expected. Make sense?

I love the wonderful people I work with. They are fabulous. I enjoy working in a Doctor's office. It fits my personality I think. I love that there are things to file and paperwork. (I have an odd adoration for paperwork...) There are things I can organize. I get to use a highlighter sometimes. I answer phones. I get to multitask a lot, which is something I love to do. :) All good things. If I had picked from any job, this is the job I would pick for me. This and maybe producer (or something) for Gilmore Girls. I would rock at that too.

At the same time though, I actually miss having too much to do. Crazy huh? Don't get me wrong, I love knowing that when I leave work, I can do whatever I choose with my time and not feel guilty about putting off studying. That is wonderful. I can really enjoy how I use my time without the ever present cloud of school-guilt. So nice. Yet, at the same time, I miss having a directed purpose/goal. I have plenty to do at work, but free time is different. I thought I would have so much free time in the evenings that I would be bored. I have yet to have a free evening. Not complaining. I have LOVED every minute with the wonderful people I have spent my evenings with. It has been a blast so far. But when I do go home there isn't a mile long list of school things to accomplish with an equally long list of personal things to accomplish. I don't think I know what to do with myself. I miss being overly busy. I like having a lot to do. I don't know if that is good. Maybe it is because I want to avoid sitting and being still. I should pray about that.

So, in answer to Shannan's recent question, My goals for this time away from school are:
1. To learn to be quiet and still. Maybe I will learn to truly WAIT on the Lord.
2. To be thankful for the freedom to do things I enjoy and be a wise steward of my time and other resources.
3. I want to learn not to give into the urge to do something solely for the purpose of being busy, or having something else to put on a to-do list.
4. I especially want to use this time to build relationships. I want to be a blessing to others.

So, that it's it....my thoughts so far on growing up.

3 comments:

The Mosiers said...

Amanda I can totally relate to what you are saying! Last year when I started my "grown up" job I ran into the same issues. God has taught me so much about being intentional with my time. It was hard at first because of course I'd rather stay home and watch t.v., but God has truly blessed my time and now I seriously have to be intentional if I need to stay home and do laundry!

I'm so glad we work together now! I'm excited to get to know you even more and hang out!

Jennifer Bacak said...

I like the goals.
Let's follow up on those.
I'm so glad you're working for us!
jenn

Julie said...

Amanda!
I am missing you!!! Your blog looks amazing! I'm impressed! :) How are things going? I'm excited for you in this new season of your life. I'll be coming back in about a month and I look forward to catching up!
Love you!
Julie