God in my hoping
There in my dreaming
God in my watching
God in my waiting
(lyrics from Tim Hughes' Everything)
I have had a first in my life recently. I am waiting with an unsure direction or terminus. Always in life, I have waited with a specific view or goal on the other end. I waited for a school year to end for the summer, I waitied for high school to end and college to begin. I waited for college math to end so I wouldn't ever have to take math again. The list is endless.
Two weeks ago, I thought I was waiting to finish school so that I could move to Boston. Now I'm not so sure. I don't know what I am waiting on now. I only know that I am waiting. This verse above perfectly describes my location. God is there; He knows my hopes, what I'm dreaming of, he sees me watching and knows I am waiting.
Even more amazing to me, is that throught the Lord's grace, I'm not concerned that I don't know what is on the other end of this time of waiting, where I will be or what that will look like. That is so not from me. It is the exact opposite of what I do instinctively. Praising the Lord for that. I know that His plans are good, and I am enjoying this sweet time of waiting with Him.